Day 94 without u

Daddy,
好想好想和您讲话!
真的好想您..
今晚回梦见你吗?

Day 87 without you

Dear daddy,

Being busy lately and lazy to write anything here. Saying no time is just an excuse.

I’m currently at Raffles City, just passed by the place we had lunch the other time when u were here. Missing u. I really wish to talk to u right now.

非常想念您。您过得好吗？

想念您

看了最近的HK drama,里头有一句说得很对-人必须经过生老病死，可是我们忘记了会面对死这一回事。如果我们愿意去接受这个事实，我们就会变得更珍惜时间和多陪陪家人、爱人、朋友。

经过最近所发生的事，虽然已经尝试抽出时间多回家、多陪您但还是觉得不够多、不够长。

如今，再也不能和您谈天、吃饭、握您的手、抱着您、听您的声音、去逛街、看电影、喝茶、吃早餐、去旅行。

Family day 也不想以前那样了。

不习惯没有您在身边。不习惯有问题、有困难时没有您给的意见。不习惯没有您帮我解决问题。不习惯没有您的关心。不习惯没有您的唠叨。不习惯在电话簿看到您的号码却不能拨电给您。不习惯和mommy, ah boy玩斗嘴时没有您的support。

Daddy,真的很想念很想念你！

您在那里好吗？会不会也很想念我们？我好害怕您会很孤单。

真的很想念您。

Day 22 without you

Dear Daddy,

Another sleepless night for me. It has been more than a week now that I couldn’t fall asleep if I prepared myself to go to bed. Think of you whenever I closed my eyes.

Still missing you very much!

Love,
Girl

Day 11 and 12 without you

To my SUPERDAD,

Finally, Mommy and I went to Pyramid for a walk on Thursday. We had ice-cream, walked for a bit, bought groceries, and doughnuts (craving for them yumz). It has been awhile since I last step into Pyramid, guess I haven’t been visit that place for nearly 3 months now. That place made me think of movie outings with you on most of the weekends. You will asked us each time if there is any nice movie, then we will head to the cinema to collect our tickets and have a drink or meal before the showtime. The last movie we watched together was during CNY. I am really missing those outings with you.

Everything seems to be normal at home but every now and then we will be thinking and talking about you. Mommy is cooking all your favorite dishes which you unable to eat them before you left to another world. I know it is tough for a food lover like you during that sick time. But will you be able to taste them now? I am wondering……

Love,
Girl

Day 10 without you

Dear Daddy,

Has been raining for more than 4 hours now. Can’t watch Astro, not sleepy yet, life is boring without you. If you were here, we can chat on anything. Mommy is really tired after preparing all three main meals for us and finishing house chores. She is sleeping soundly now.

People from Nirvana dropped by just now to pass us some stuff, photos taken during memorial service and funeral is one of them. Looking at those pictures made me depressed. I tried not to think about it but I just couldn’t help myself. I wanted to cry but I have no more tears. I’m suffocating right now. Am I avoiding some emotions? Am I really that strong? I don’t know. Actually, I am afraid to cry.

The armchair in your room, your bed, your pillows, your wardrobe, your clothes, your toiletries, your mug, your shoes, anything belongs or related to you will made us think of you. You played an important role in our lives. Although you are not here but your spirit, your teachings, your aims will always be with us and you will always be in my heart. I will try my best to continue the way you treat your family, friends and workers, always so generous and always give more than take.

Missing you my SUPERDAD!

Love,
Girl

Day 9 without you

Hey Daddy,

I slept through the whole afternoon. Reluctant to take medications but forced by Mommy to take them. I feel much better now and I was craving for McD just now so we ordered. =p. I know it is not good and I might get sore throat again but comfort foods are really in need at the moment.

It is a Chinese custom to pray for 49 days and to serve each main meal to you during that time period. Felt so heartache when we could only serve meals to you and imagine that you are gonna eat them.

You left us so sudden. I have no one to lean on when I’m sad, I have no one to support when I have problem, I have no one to turn to when I have question, I have no one to pamper me anymore. I thought I could spend more time with you, at least a year or two. Everyone has been telling me you are in a better place now, no more illness, no more pain. But that is just a way to make myself feel better and move on with life.

You had once told me that you will organize our weddings, you will bring our children to school, you will travel the world with us, you will explore photography with me. But all these can only be categorized into the undone list, leaving to be repentant. When I told these to Mommy, she said she will take your role but it will not be the same anymore. I don’t think Mommy will carry a heavy DSLR to snap pictures with me, don’t you think so Daddy?

Daddy, Nugget is growing. He is no longer the underweight puppy when we first brought him home. He is much bigger and longer now but no longer that hyperactive. He will follow us closely, no more running here and there. You didn’t have a chance to train him to get you newspaper in the morning. Sigh.

Time to sleep. I wish to see you in my dream, please talk to me this time.

Love you Daddy.

Love,
Girl

Day 8 without you

Dear Daddy,

Yesterday is another busy day. Went to get the City fix, and to the bank after that.

When you were here last time, I don’t have to worry about statements and bills but I do now. You had taught me well to face any problems. This is one of them. Right now I just have to be more organize with those bills.

In the afternoon, I had to drive to office just to get my letter of absence scan and email to the department. Ah boy la, formatted his laptop and hasn’t install Micorsoft Office yet. If you were here, you definitely will drive me to office because you gonna be so worried if I were to drive after taking the flu pill.

U gonna lecture me because I skipped my meal again. I just don’t have the appetite not emotionally but physically sick. Hope it is just normal virus attack not anything major.

Miss you!!

Love,
Girl

Day 6 and 7 without u

Dear Daddy,

I’m writing this while watching your fav football team ManU against Tottenham. It feels so weird watching EPL without you this time. How badly I wish you were here with us. Daddy, 2nd goal tonight! But you weren’t here to shout with us.

On Saturday we went to Nirvana to discussed on Feng Shui for your tomb and all. You don’t have to worry as we get everything sorted out pretty much, just left with inspection.

You had left us for a week now. We did a prayer this afternoon (头七), bought your favorite foods but also missed out some stuff and some steps. Everyone seems to be moody, mommy cried out of sudden just now but she is sleeping now. She missed you badly as seeing things you left behind and the memories with you she is having in her mind will make her cries.

Daddy! 3rd goal! Glory ManU!

I’m having nose block and fever. If you were here, you will ask mommy to make fruit juice for me, force me to eat, nag me because of not taking good care of myself, and make sure I’m ok.

Miss chatting with you.

Love,
Girl

This is what we had for lunch on Saturday at Parade. No one to bring us for movie on Sundays anymore.

Day 5 without u

Dear Daddy,

How r u doing in another world? Have u met up with ye ye and ma ma yet?

What do you think about the funeral? It went well right? Saw many of your friends came in to give their last respect.. In summary, u are a tall and smart looking man, kind-hearted and a buddy to them.

Relatives and friends are being supportive. Although some of them have very much comments but I believe they just couldn’t accept it yet. As you told me before, I have to be generous and not to take their words so serious. I will Daddy, I didn’t fight back even I heard things I didn’t want to hear.

So much to do after the funeral Daddy. Have to go to many government departments and you always knew I don’t like to do paper work. You are really training me to be a grown up. A strong and tough one.

Daddy you don’t have to worry about us. I will take your role in the family to continue to take care mommy and boy.

Miss you so much Daddy. May you rest in peace.

Love,
Girl